Fancy with my bestie

I kinda have picky tastes when it comes to clothing and I find that most pieces I crave...are in skinny sizes. :(
So a few months ago when I saw that Lane Bryant had a Perfect Gentleman tee, I booked it over there in desperate hopes that I would, too, be fancy. And now I am.

So one of my fears that I want to get over is being in front of the camera and I have a bestie, Joey @ Pretty, Nerdy Girl, who finally caved to taking photos of me, after months of me badgering her. I feel our day went well, which included food, a walk and many hours together. Times were good. And now on to my favorite tee!!!!

Online dating gives me this face...

I'm sitting at my computer, excitedly typing a response to a cute guy who's just asked me what I like to do for fun. Just then, another 2 messages roll in telling me how cute I am and what I'm expecting from the site. I respond to them right away, smiling and expecting something sweet in return, but instead get the "lets txt" and "u lik big cock?" I return to the guy who said I was cute and find a message that asks if I have big....girly bits (not the top ones).

Feature: An adorable mashup!!

October last year (2013), I had a date planned with a man I met online. We lived 4hrs away from each other, but agreed to meet in the middle, which was Monterey Bay, CA. I was SUPER excited....the date was horrible. A total disappointment, I was determined to find something adorable before leaving Monterey: enter Target. I shopped at Target for a bit and found this skirt, which I haven't really worn often.

Sooo I have this nifty friend, Pretty Nerdy Girl, who agreed to take some photos of me for my blog and one of my fears.

Dear Avenue....

....What the Fuck? Seriously...what...the...fuck.

This pretty much sums up my shopping experience here.

Do I Deserve to Date?

I've been in kind of a funk lately and it's all had to do with dating.

I've tried online dating a few times and had a few successes, though mostly bombs; but isn't that what dating is all about? Anyway, I haven't tried online dating (or any dating) for almost a year and I'm getting a little antsy. See, as I'm getting older, I'm noticing more people getting into relationships and doing things like going on vacations, getting married, going on adventures, having babies, all those awesome things that come with coupling up...and I want that. I know it's "bad" to want to be in a relationship, but is it really? IS it? So I want to try, but one major thing is stopping me: Do I deserve to be in a relationship?

Conquer Your Fears #2

So I've been meaning to do this blog post for a few weeks...and then made excuses.
"I want a specific set up." (true)
"My room is freakin' messy." (true)
"We had a death in the family so I'm a bit sad." (true)
"I'm having issues with my friends and school...so I'm a bit sad." (true)
"The lighting is wrong."
"I'm eating a cookie."
"I'm drinking too much so it won't be good."

Fat Shaming?

I found this brief article via Pinterest about Fat Shaming that asks the question why people feel the need to poke fun at and take photos of fat people. Well, probably fat women (let's keep it real, it's more socially acceptable to be over weight as a man, than a woman...that's not to say that some men aren't treated poorly because of their size).

I gotta admit...I cant' stand the phrase "fat shaming."

Dear Target...

....fuck you. Fuck you in the ear.

Still reeling....

...off of how many posts I made last week!!! Yeah I know it wasn't a lot, but I was super pumped up for the previous post that I sat back and watched what people said. I was surprised by just how positive people (aka friends) were. Some people said they were proud, one said I was inspiring and another said she felt the exact same way; I honestly didn't expect any of that, but it was surprising and nice.

To make a quick post, I posted this photo on Instagram this past week:

And I tagged Lane Bryant...and again they hearted my picture!!! (Yeah I know it's not called "hearted" but it's kinda what it is.....) I seriously get so excited when certain people like my photos. Anyway, this is a long sleeve, medium length sweater dress from LB and, while a tiny bit big for me, I love it and I kinda want to wear it once a week. I wore it with black leggings and medium blue shoes from Payless. Also, these *awesome* (<--SARCASM) photos happened. I'm still so entertained that Google puts these together.

Conquer your fears: Challenge 1

Before my vacation, I promised myself I would do things that I'm scared of and things that I haven't done, because of fear. Fear of failure, fear of others judging me, fear of how I'll look when doing it, just fear. While this may not be a huge leap for others, I feel it's a tiny jump for me....a tiny jump that will empower me to make big leaps.

For my first challenge, I'm going to share some photos. These aren't just regular photos, these are photos I haven't shared with anyone because I don't like the way I look in them, which is dumb. It's dumb because these photos include others and. instead of sharing these great memories with my friends and loved ones, I've hidden them away! Tsk, tsk Sheena. But I'm going to change that.